Sunday 4 March 2012

Scary road ahead



I’m afraid I don’t have much to report today as once again (even without a sleeping tablet last night) I’ve been pretty lethargic.  I can only assume that the cause of this is a combination of now being on the full dose of anti-anxiety meds and/or natural laziness.  Please note that I’m not asking for opinions on which of the two it might be.  I think I can guess which way that particular vote would go.

So tomorrow I start treatment.  As mentioned in previous posts I kicked up something of a stink to get my first lot of chemo moved forward by ten days.  Had I failed in my attempt to get chemo sooner I would be moaning for Britain.  However, now it’s due to start tomorrow I am also moaning for Britain.  This is because I am complex and deep and also a big cissy-pants.  The list of possible side effects is so huge it would have been easier for the hospital to bin the reams of  info they gave me and just to have handed me a piece of paper bearing the word ‘everything’.  In bold. 

So there you have it, tomorrow, I start on the scary treatment road (note I did not use the word ‘journey’ – that would be unforgiveable).  Anyway my feeble road analogy is an excuse for starting this post with a picture taken on holiday in the wilds of Scotland last September.  It’s the Bealach na Bà – a quite scary mountain pass we drove over on a number of occasions.  I was a big cissy-pants when we were doing that too. 

And to finish on a more positive note, another picture this time indicating a more onwards and upwards frame of mind (which I know I need to foster, but requires the removal of my big cissy-pants which appear to be welded on at the moment).  This photo was also taken in Scotland last year but I’ve forgotten where.  I should warn you I have about 300 photos from that holiday and some more may well appear on this blog.  You lucky, lucky devils!   


8 comments:

  1. Dear Della
    I think David Hockney would approve of the photo. Tomorrow is very scarey but you can do it. Will be thinking about you when it matters. As fr woves, nick has taken early to his bed.......Xx c

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    1. Oh blimey Wolves! All is doom and gloom with his nibs over that.

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    1. Thanks. (Loved the facebook thing about the shiny drink)

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  3. Anyway ...you're allowed to be a big cissy pants...thinking of you XX

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    1. Well, now I've got permission I'll be putting on my cissy vest too and tucking into my cissy pants

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  4. I cannot bear sean bean either!
    I am also with you on the word "journey" and would like to add "brave" to the list too. I am sure we can come up with many more in the next few months. I would add all references to any religion but am aware of the affiliation of some americans so will keep it buttoned in the regard.

    The list of POSSIBLE side effects is long because they have to cover themselves in case you come up with one they hadn't thought of. Is having your sissy pants become welded to your bottom one of them? No? i think you can sue for that because you are clearly not the only one with that problem, it is most likely rife and you should have been warned, damn it.
    I will also be thinking of you.

    Big love from the Hayslip massive. xxxx

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    1. Well, it looks like we won't be having a big girlie fight over Sean Bean then. That's a relief. Love to the Hayslip Massive.

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